Tuesday

Which means i've made it through another monday.
I should get my package today from the family. Care package mixed with xmas. should be interesting to see what they have managed to stuff in it. pots and pans? hopefully! money? maybe! clothes? i don't need anymore!!! i asked for nothing. as i do every year. and my family always seems offended ? like when i ask them to go feed the homeless or donate time at a shelter. WTF? i guess they still have that same mentality as what they tried to feed to me as a kid. "they did it to themselves" im not sure which of the 2 of my grandparents belched  that heartfelt phrase to me..but im going to assume 100% my grandpa. He hates life..with a fucking passion. but..he's "christian" so he cannot kill him self.  trust me out of all the hateful, ignorant,down right nasty and rotten shit this man has pulled committing suicide could only save himself.
anyways..
My package..yes i want..i love surprises!! i personally do not celebrate christmas. BUT i do accept gifts =D why not? fuck it! i accept gifts when no "holidays" are even involved. people love me like that i guess. i used to get gifts all the time in derby...but honestly..thoses were prolly peace offerings.. hahahaha *le sigh*

STILL WAITING TO HEAR ABOUT THIS JOB IMA GET (that is me manifesting and directing positive energy twords myself)

Im still sick. and im not sure but i feel better than i did yesterday and im not on any medicine yet..but my taste buds are out for the day or something..i tried to eat these jalapeno chips last night and i couldnt tooo spicy. woke up this morning and ate the whole bowl and didnt even feel one hint of peno. not sure whats going on.
i know TMI maybe? or ULI (useless info)

Im not really in the mood right now to get all philosophical and start talking about things that i believe in. or how i think the mechanics of everything works.  But what i can tell you. Is that my friend Bob. Has this amazing website..... yes its Normal Bob Smith  
there you can read about Hate male, amazing strangers which are weird people in union square, satan salvation which is the hilarious comic bob has made. and don't forget hot girls!! Super Chics!!
if you think you have been bitten by the xmas bug , bob has something for you . Try Jesus Dress Up !

the tempature outside mixed with the seabreeze feels about like 40 something out.
i have more cleaning to do. and i've taken a longer break than expected on my paintings..i have given myself untill the 1st to finnish them..and i have yet to start on the Marylin Monroe Zombie..which is the BIGGEST painting im doing. HA! and i no longer have the troll..i wasnt feelin it..so i making the cheshire cat!

my humor ina nutshell

I want to make a dress..but i havent been in the mood to sew anything. ugh. i want it tho......i think its cuz i have nothing but crappy scissors...oh snap! i forgot i have that pair of electric ones HA!

and i somehow have to prepare for a full day of filming with a bunch of people i dont know. i guess a 6pk will cure that. anyways im out !